Frozen. Speechless. Blank stare. Tears sting my eyes.
My gut reaction is to respond, no. I think because for so long I really didn't love myself. I never felt that I was worthy of love from others and therefore not worthy of self love. That was a lifetime ago. I don't feel that I need love from others to feel self love. But.... can I sit here, look in the rmirror, and say, I love you? I'm going to try later. I have never tried before.
When I look at my actions over the past year I can see that many of them, not all, but many of them reflect a level of self love. If I hadn't been in the place where I had a certain amount of that, I couldn't have made certain steps and choices that I have.
I should remind myself of this more often.
Instead, I seem drawn to focusing on my faults and mistakes that I have made and/or continued to make. It has held me in place, bound me tightly, and I need to break free from the guilt and shame or I think I may continue to repeat, or at the very least, not move forward.
In loving myself, I forgive myself. In loving myself, I have faith in myself. In loving myself, I trust myself.
Forgiveness. Faith. Trust.
Three elements that I am making a commitment today, to nurture, as I nurture myself. Because until I can find those things in myself, no one else will.... and I won't find it in anyone else.
I love myself enough to make that commitment.